“Your ribcage is protecting your heart,” she said, as she skillfully worked the tension out of my back. I was having a massage, with a therapist that knows me well.“But it’s more than that,” she added. “It’s like…..BEARhugging your heart.” I have no idea what that means. But it brought me comfort. It’s very dark, and …
it has been a good long time since I posted. So long, that I had to look up how to log in. I was aware I wasn\’t posting, but the state of mind/body/spirit I\’ve been in is built to protect us from overwhelm and trauma and burnout, so I wasn\’t completely aware. I\’ve just sort …
Autoimmune diseases refer to problems with the immune system, which usually fights off viruses, bacteria, and infection. The problem causes your immune cells to attack your body by mistake. These diseases can affect almost any part of the body. (NIH) The immune system gets confused. It attacks the one it is supposed to protect. When …
Last year, two weeks after we locked down, I posted for the first time about my journey with life-long PTSD. (see it here)-and why it was easier for me than for most to lockdown. I\’ve been in some form of internal lock-down for most of my life. Of course, I had no idea that more …
I\’ve taken countless writing workshops and classes where, when you say \”I don\’t know what to write about\”, the facilitator will say: \”write about THAT.\” Yeah. It sounds like annoying response, but here\’s the thing: IT WORKS. And I\’ve been thinking, for a while: there are all these things I WANT to write about-but I …
so many pieces that had been well in placehave been broken, of latethey are all floating around the feeling of not knowingor ratherthe awareness of itblanknessopen spaceno groundis hard for anyoneright?for me it feels life-threateningthought the adult knowsall will be okay…. the four-year-olddoes NOTthe trauma that lay hidden for so longcomes rushing to the surfaceand …
A dear friend reached out to me this week, overloaded by several crises. Heartbreaking situations, one piled on top of the other, a heavy load to carry. They would be crises for most folks, and this friend also has a history of early childhood trauma. I recognize trigger when I see it. She cried on …
yes, it\’s okayif you\’ve hit your limitif you have little or no bandwidthyesit\’s okay that is where I am right now.note: this is not a post for pityI am not seeking attentionI feel like a wrung-out ragand I want to say it out loudfor meand alsofor anyone who should find thiswho has also hit their …
Written in a workshop with Beth Dunnington, August 2020 I started doing this thing, this imagery thing, when my PTSD got triggered….maybe fifteen years ago. Maybe more. I don\’t recall exactly when, but the images are in my mind forever. My four-year-old–the age I was when the traumas happened–needs me. She is in the bedroom …
going to get her, over and over: reclaiming the pieces Read More »
Really, really hard times we are living in. A political situation that is beyond politics. It\’s….about morals. About humanity. There is so much anger and aggression and conflict. It\’s getting deadly now-literally. A worldwide pandemic that has brought the planet to its knees. The few things we are beginning to know less than a year …
